5th term so far..

my artwork for my JOSERIZ class

So it’s already my fifth term in college, and I am still up and running. Last term was an amalgam of the good and the bad. But there’s more bad than good. The outcome showed it all. A lot of “firsts” happened last term. It was my first time to not ever get a 3.5 (95-97%) grade in any subject. It was the first time I partied so hard, so frequent, and so bad. I was literally out every week. I rarely stayed at the dorm. I think last term was my saddest and most depressing term. I met a lot of people – both the good and the bad, some I kept, and some left. I definitely do not regret anything that happened last term though because it was when I learned the most important lesson – prioritizing, or in layman’s terms, putting first things first. I never really got around to thinking what was important anymore. I was an angry child. I just wanted to get out and go crazy, thinking that would solve my problems. It did nothing good to me though. I almost flunked my subjects, but thank God I didn’t. God still loves me.

I’ve turned down almost every invite I got for the past four weeks since school started. Whenever I felt like going to any them, I just look back to what I did last term. I know I only went out whenever there’s no school the next day, but I was overly stressed. That’s what got me all messed up. I started to skip classes just to catch up on resting. But I’m glad I passed through that stage. At least I learned from my mistakes, and once again proved to myself that experience is the best teacher.

So now I am more focused. I am now taking my core subjects and these subjects need more of my attention. I cannot mess up. So far, I’m really loving my PRINMGT (Principles of Management) class. Obviously it’s all about Management in general. It could be managing a business, an organization, or yourself. I find this subject very helpful because it does not only give me an idea on how to run a business, but it also gives me the chance to evaluate myself whether I have good managerial skills. And based on my postulation, I am not yet a good manager since I can barely manage my own time. But in due time, I’m sure that I will learn. Or else all these years of studying and spending money on my education would be futile.

I think this term would be a very good term and it’s a time to redeem myself! My mom has no idea about this, but it’s good that I’m having my own realizations. I don’t want her reminding me all the time. I want her to know that I realize what I’m doing and I know what is right and wrong. Now I really could say that you can’t say anything unless you’ve been there.